just breathe.

So let’s just say that I’ve had a week, more like a couple weeks.

Everything that could go wrong went wrong and on top on that with the time change that occurred it now get darker a lot earlier in the day so I am unable to get any sunlight during the week. This week felt like I had scatterbrain, it was hard to really focus on anything, couldn’t be organized to save my life and I have been constantly tired.

Now I’m not going to pretend like these are new things because focus and organization don’t come easy for me. I had many conversations with different people about the topic this week and came to the realization that it is normal that I am less good in these areas of work and life. With the kind of work I do and the sort of person I am, I constantly am trying to think outside the box, design and be artsy. I never had a real use for organizational techniques and ways to remain focus on a job without my wanting to start anything else.

I don’t like to let people down and knowing that my lack of skills is causing problems is giving me anxiety. I was legitimately nervous about going to work all week just in case I would miss something. I told Ben all of this and something he said to me was “relax and don’t forget to breath”. I did; in that moment of panic I wasn’t breathing properly and was letting the situation take control of me as oppose to me it.

I want to learn to develop this skill that so many people seem to take to so easily. I want to take my time and notice little mistakes. I want to make lists and stick to them and feel a sense of reward once done. I want to know where all my things are when asked to find it… I just think that I need a little help. I need some tips on how to overcome this creative/scatterbrain/unorganized/lack of focus/not finishing anything/bored brain that I call my own.

I guess maybe making daily lists might help with being organized or meditating with the focus part?

What works for you? Do you have any good tips? If so please share.


International Women’s Day

Alright so as most of you know I’ve had a hell of a year and it all started on IWD in 2017. Getting fired on that day and having to deal with the side effects…


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