all by myself…

As you guys know I am a little bit of a free spirit and like it that way. But I have realized that it can sometimes be a little frustrating. My work recently had its AGM (Annual General Meeting) and we all took personality tests – my colour was orange. To give you a bit of knowledge on what that means here are some of the characteristics:

constantly seeking change
direct communicator (but Ben could have told you that lol)
quick to act
action oriented
competitive
risk taker
eager to try new things

None of that was news to me, but hearing about the weaknesses kind of put things into perspective:

impatient
pushy
impulsive
bending rules
act too quickly
missing big picture
lax with detail
may not follow through

I think that on some level I knew I was somewhat like this but now that I’ve seen it, it’s all I can think about.

Ben and I had a challenging couple of days last week. I was coming up with some ideas and after telling him, would immediately need some sort of validation or encouragement. Now in Ben’s defense I do come up with a lot of different ideas all the time that for some reason always need approval. What I came to realize is that having my husbands support is great and somewhat necessary but I need to have more confidence in myself. I need to pick an idea and stick to it. This is where being impulsive and impatient doesn’t work in my favour. I know what my end goal should be but I struggle at developing the path to it.

I think that sometimes I’m too hard on myself and where I am at in life. I think that I might be the definition of what a millenial is. I want to make a difference and have an impact on people, I want to do good and live a meaningful life. But right now I need to figure out how to get to that. Do dreams change or do people change? For as long as I can remember I have always wanted to work for a big advertising firm, do I still want that? I don’t know for sure as I have so many other ideas on my mind. If that is what I want, how do I also make sure that my other dreams and passions are fulfilled? How do I integrate all of the things I love into one thing?

I sometimes feel like a chicken running around with its head cut off.

Any tips for me?

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my happiness

Ok so I started reading the book like I said I would.

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